“Feelings, nothing more than feelings.”


Don’t mind me, I was just thinking about how I sang the song “Feelings” when I had to get fillings at the dentist office when I was a kid.

I forgot to mention how I felt when I first found out I was pregnant.  It was actually a shock.  It wasn’t that I didn’t want to kids.. I just didn’t think that we’d start trying for kids and it would happen so fast.  I knew that we wouldn’t have a problem since Ivan’s lucky.  Ivan and I have put off having kids for as long as possible since we travelled so much.

It was all so surreal and I believed it, but it didn’t really feel “real”.  Ivan didn’t believe it neither since he kept making me take pregnancy tests.  I knew I was pregnant after that 2nd test.

Since I’ve been growing more, it seems more real.  I was scared about the pain involved with labor.  I’m slowly feeling better and not as fearful.

I’m excited to find out the gender of the baby.  We recently got to hear the baby’s heartbeat which was really cool.  It was short lived.. more about that in the next blog post.

Everybody is pretty excited especially family and our close friends.  I have no clue what to do with decorating the baby’s room.  We’re going to change our current guestroom to be the baby’s room.  So, we’re currently working on the new guestroom.  Once we know the baby’s sex, then maybe we can start thinking about décor for the baby’s room.

I’ve been talking more to the baby.  Hope that he or she is doing alright in there.

I really can’t wait to meet the baby once he or she is born.  I just can’t imagine what that will feel like.  I’m sure it’s going to be awesome though.

Hypno Cheese

I have been more emotional like I mentioned in my last post.  I was watching The Beatles tribute on tv.  I cried a bit while watching Katy Perry’s version of Yesterday.  I think she was thinking about her failed marriage with Russell Brand while she was singing  I also cried when Hey Jude was performed. 

My feet have swollen a bit.  My socks are smaller and my shoes are tighter.  I need to buy some slip on shoes like a pair of Vans.  I figured I would wear sandals since they’re easy to expand and soon it will be a lot warmer.

My belly and boobs do feel much smoother since I’ve been using the Burt’s Bees Mama Bee Belly Butter (Say that 3 times fast!).

I feel bigger, but my weight has remained the same.  I read that I might gain 1 pound a week during the second trimester.  People don’t know I’m pregnant, unless they know since they’re my friend.  So, only a few friends have touched my belly.  I don’t mind if people touch my belly.  It’s cute. 

I still have pregnancy brain.  I seem to forget things.  Not a big deal though. 

I love the pregnancy pants.  They’re really comfortable.  Here’s a picture to show you what it looks like.

Jen showing off her pregnancy pants

I’ve been getting pimples.  My cheeks turns red after I wear make-up and I wash my face.  I don’t know if it’s the make-up, so I don’t wear it as much now.  I have red marks on my chest which I have no idea how they got there.  Your skin acts weird when you’re pregnant.

I feel great.  My back does hurt more now though. 

I saw my doula Shannondoah on February 19, 2014.  I had an hour hypno massage with her.  I’ve had a hypno massage with her before so I knew it would make my aching back feel better. 

The massage had me lying down with my back raised to a 45 degree angle.  I am very easy to hypnotize.  Ivan has hypnotized me a lot and I go very deep. 

Shannondoah took me to a beach.  She had me float in the water with Ivan holding me for support.  I love floating in the water by myself on the ocean or sea since it feels like I’m floating on a cloud. 

She took me to a house which we would return to in future hypno massages.  I pictured a red brick house which was behind the beach.  She said there was a porch that was in the front of the house.  The house has a wood fence in front of it. 

I went to a cliff and there was a table and chair there.  I could pick up a remote control there that controls any aches or pains that I might feel.  I could also go there and hold my baby at any time since the baby had a bassinet there.  I didn’t see the baby though.  Maybe in other sessions I will get to see what he or she looks like.

I returned to the beach and was floating in the water.  It became cloudy and became a big movie screen in the sky.  I was to picture my perfect birth on the screen.  Yes, every contraction and what ever else happens.  The birth movie went on for awhile ending with me and Ivan holding the baby in our bed.

I told Shannondoah that I wanted to work on fear releasing.  I have feared the uncomfortable things that go with labor.  Shannondoah prefers using uncomfortable than using the word pain.  I also have a fear of complications.  I know I would be transported to the nearby hospital which is only a 2 minute drive from our house.

She had me imagine a box and I put all my fears inside the box.  I locked the box and then threw it into the ocean.  I think it has helped since I don’t really fear the labor as much.  I know that I can do this birth naturally without medications.  Of course, I will feel uncomfortable and it may take awhile for the baby to come out.  But, I will do it.  Once I set my mind on something, I will do it. 

I felt a lot better after the massage.  We set up another massage in 2 weeks.

I forgot to mention that Shannondoah suggested that I write a birth plan.  It’s something you fill out that states your preferences for the birth like if you want medication or what music you want.  I’m glad that there are sample birth plans out on the internet.  I have heard of birth plans, but wasn’t sure what I would want at my baby’s birth. I found a home birth plan here.  There’s also a birth plan for a hospital birth that I found on Baby Center.

I feel really excited to hear the baby’s heartbeat – hopefully, next week we’ll get to hear it with my visit with our midwife Kat.  I’m not sure when I will get my ultrasound.  Ivan and I are looking forward to finding out the sex of the baby.

It’s funny how everybody thinks they’re an expert on pregnancy.  I will post something on Facebook and somebody will comment and say Have you asked your doctor about that? or offer their advice.  I just laugh.  Each pregnancy can be different.  I know they’re just worried for my health.

I am now 11 weeks and 5 days.

Jen at 11 weeks and 5 days

I haven’t had any strange cravings yet.  I’ve been craving cheese lately.  Mmm, I love cheese.  I’ve bought string cheese and the tasty, but expensive, Babybel Light.

I got my new Post-it notes that have my blog website.  I’ve been doing the Post-its Project on my new post-its. 

Best day quote for the Post-its Project #BucketandDoit

This one I stuck in a daily planner at Wal-Mart.   I hope they’ve been bringing smiles and happiness to people!

Beef Ball

Sorry for the lack of updates.  I have been busy lately.

I added links on the bottom of the page to Pregnancy sites, Clothing, Vegas and Blogs that I like. Check it out!

There’s a Birth Club forum on the Baby Center app that I signed up to.  The website was having a contest in the September Birth Club where they asked a few questions.  You could answer as many times as you wanted and include pictures if possible.  I included pictures in all my answers.  I won a Baby Center Yoga Ball.  Nice!

Ivan and I met up with our doula Shannondoah.  We talked more about the birth and signed paperwork.  We signed up for the package that includes the birth and 11 sessions of massages or hypnobirthing. She’s so very sweet.  I’m glad that she will be my doula for the birth.  She asked if I had an exercise ball and I said that I just won one.  She said it will come in handy.  It will be good to have for exercise.  We set up my first massage for 3 weeks away.

I’ve been feeling a lot better with no more nausea.  I’ve really been lucky not puking which most mums do.  Sometimes, my boobs and lower back are sore.  The massages will help with my back soreness.

On January 3, I was crying because I didn’t like my lunch.  It didn’t have much flavor.  I was talking about how I eat meat sometimes and it made me think that I want to eat some meat.

Jimmy John's Roast Beef sandwich

So, I went to Jimmy John’s and had a tasty roast beef sandwich.

There’s a new thing called the “Instagram Diet”.  You look at pictures of food and it supposedly makes you want to eat less.  I don’t believe that bs.  But, pregnancy has the opposite effect on me.  I see foods of things I like in pictures and I want it as soon as possible.  I’m trying not to look at foodporn pictures anymore.

I had breakfast with Ivan, my sister-in-law Kara and my nephews and niece at Mr Mama’s.  It’s a family run business with good food.  We talked about baby names.  My nephew Lukey liked the name Gwendolyn while my niece Maria liked the name Louisa.

I have been waking up in the middle of the night more to pee.  I woke up at 3 am on January 6 to a lady announcing that “The birth starts now.”  I thought I better get up.  Of course, I realized it was my brain playing tricks on me.  My mistake was taking the phone into the bathroom while I went to pee.  This woke me up even more and then I couldn’t go back to sleep until probably 2 hours later.

I have been advertising the blog on the Post-its Project on the Bucket List Meetup.  Pregnancy brain got me again and I wrote down my website wrong.

Visit https://mummytob.wordpress.com

Oops!  I have now remembered my website URL, so that it doesn’t happen again.

I’m more emotional now.  I cry more.  I get really cold which was normal before I was pregnant.  But, now I get a little uncomfortable when it’s warm. My friend’s friend mentioned that It’s going to be hot when I’m pregnant in the summer.  Not looking forward to that.  I might have to stay indoors when it’s really hot out during the day.

I found out from my midwife Kat that I need more Vitamin D in my diet since my labwork came back.

Everything has been going well.  I’m now 10 weeks and 2 days.

Jen at 10 weeks and 2 days

My belly has been getting big.  I got my Burt’s Bees Mama Bee Belly Butter recently.  It helps with keeping my big belly and boobs smooth and moisturized and is supposed to help prevent stretch marks.  I’ll let ya know what I think of it on my next blog post.

Spicy Banana Love

I have been waking up in the middle of the night to go pee.  Not every night, but every now and then.  It’s annoying since I have to get out of my warm bed to pee and hope that I’ll be able to go back to sleep.  The trick is not to turn on the light in the bathroom, otherwise that usually wakes me up more than I already am.

I went to Lab Express to do my lab work.  It looked like somebody peed on the chair that I had to sit on to give my blood.  But, then I thought it probably wasn’t pee since it was a round yellow stain.. which could mean.. not sure, but I didn’t really want to dwell on it.  I gave a bunch of blood and then I had to pee in a cup.  I’m becoming a professional at peeing in cups.  The lady said to fill the cup half way or as much as you can.  I almost filled it all up. 

I can taste spicy food more now.  I think I have super tastebuds now.  Ivan and I ate at La Comida recently and I could taste even the smallest spiciness in the food.  I try to stay away from spice.. but a little is okay.

Ivan and I have been walking more.  The books recommend 30 minutes of exercise a day.  We’ve been walking for 30 minutes along the wash near our house. 

Runkeeper tracks your walk or run

I like the free app Runkeeper which tracks how long I walked, where I walked and how many calories I’m burning.

On January 31, 2014, Ivan and I went to Target.  We bought some pregnancy clothes for me.  I couldn’t find any good jeans, but I got a pair of sweatpants and lots of shirts.  Ivan thought it was a good idea to buy shirts that are big for me, but I’ll be able to fit into later on since my belly will be so big.

I went to the bathroom at Target and I dry heaved since it smelled like the sewer in there.  I almost puked.  Certain smells can get to you when you’re pregnant.  We have a new all purpose cleaner for our countertops in the kitchen.  I hate the smell!  My sense of smell seems to be more magnified now.

On February 1, 2014, I took Prenatal Yoga at Belly Bliss.  It was different this time where the teacher taught us yoga on chairs.  This type of Yoga is especially good for women in their third trimester of their pregnancy.

She showed us a move that will help prevent us from getting varicose veins and is good for stretching..  It’s good to do for 10 minutes a day for varicose vein prevention.  You have a chair facing you while you’re laying on your right side with your legs under the chair.  You place your left leg on the chair – I put the leg up to my knee, but whatever’s most comfortable for you.  Repeat on the other side.

One girl was 37 weeks and about to give birth in 20 days or so.  I don’t think I will be doing Prenatal Yoga at 37 weeks.  I probably won’t want to do much exercise then.

Thank goodness Ivan eats healthy which makes me eat healthy.  Today, he made a cauliflower Indian dahl for lunch.

Cauliflower Indian Dahl

I started doing the Post-its Project (It’s free to spread love!) which I saw on the Las Vegas Bucket List meetup group.  It’s for the month of February.  Put positive messages or quotes on a post-it note and place it somewhere for somebody to find like the gym scale, magazines, bathroom stalls, books, etc. 

Ivan and I went to the mall today.  I decided to promote this blog on the Post-its.  Here’s one of the notes I left on this Super DOMO at IT’SUGAR Candy Store at Town Square mall.

Post-its Project note on a DOMO doll

Hope somebody comes to the blog and says hi after seeing the note.  I’m hoping this makes people smile.  It’s good to spread love and happiness.

The house is filling up with flowers again.  We got Italian flowers with a funny note. Davide had to put down his banana pizza when he heard the good news!  I guess there are still lots of Dave the monkeys are there that I didn’t know about.

More flowers and congratulations from Hungary and from a drunken monkey named Daibhead from Ireland.  One of the cutest flowers came today from Dawid from Poland. 

Smiley congratulations from Poland

He told me to remember the Polish tradition: The more Bananas you eat, the healthier the baby will be!!  I better start eating more bananas!